almost

so these past few weeks have been challenging (in terms of getting this thesis done)
I mean, on paper it seems easy enough, write – edit – polish
rinse and repeat
that is all there is to it
but it’s just been so long and am just really fatigued and demotivated I suppose
I have to/need to change this mindset
failure only begins when you stop trying right? (cheezeh)

so am just gonna “do do do” (that’s what mum says)

and then she tells me to just pray for the best and that things are going to be okay

in the midst of all of this, I find myself feeling guilty for not being able to be there for the people around me as much as they need me and/or as much as I want to
and today one of my phd cohort-mates was saying that
“our minds are not free”
and it makes perfect sense
my mind is not free because I have this thesis hanging above my head the whole dang time

but as my other colleague puts it “gotta learn to love it”

so okay, day 1 of loving liking it

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mm14

it's not Monday, but it is humpday (in my case, everyday is humpday) 🐫 🐫 🐫
3 weeks before I have to send this in
I'm going to make this work
by hook or by crook
just need to focus
and breathe
and soldier on

here we go.

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two weekends ago, I had the opportunity to witness one of my best friend's niqah and I have to say, I love weddings
not because of the food or deco
but try and
strip back all the glitz, glamour, makeup, adat etc
here you have two people who have made a conscious decision to be partners for life and more
and I think that is just so wonderful (cheesy I know but come on man)

highlights for me:
– being the MOH
– first time merenjis (EVER)
– kellogs reuniting (we were in shades of red)
– last but most importantly: best friend marrying her soulmate

– was also featured in the niqah video where of course, yours truly cried while giving her speech – immortalised forever ha.

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okay back to workworkwork