an obvious sign that my mojo is off
is when I burnt my first batch of cookies (more like charred really) today
usually I don’t even need to set a timer
because I can just feel that they’re ready
well not today

shit got real-er
T – less than one year and I am not okay
gotta get all them shiz back in a nice pile that I can work with
okay tomorrow’s another day

^ranting before I sleep 
^^to let off steam obviously 



– I’ve got to say, Spotify premium is pretty sweet
– this song would be perfect for a drive
– it is getting mudda cold – I’ve gone into caterpillar mode (sleeping bagging it everywhere)
– I am obviously procrastinating


when life gives you lemons (specifically by a friend who has a lemon tree and the tree went berserk and keeps giving lemons nonstop),

you make lemon-y foodles
and because I am better at baking (read: cooking still baffles me)
I made lemon mini cakes!
and because I don’t want to lose this recipe ever
am here to waste some webspace

original recipe was actually a whole 9” moist lemon butter cake
but I am lazy and I want things done fast
so the batter was dumped in muffin liners to half the cooking time
(efficiency points +1)

– 1.5 cup of AP flour
– 1 tsp baking powder
– 0.5 tsp baking soda
– 1 cup (227 g) of unsalter butter
– 1.25 cup white sugar
– 0.5 tsp salt
– 3 large eggs (room temp)
– 2 tbsp mayonnaise (yeah I know)
– zest of 3 lemons
– 1/3 ++ cup of lemon juice

1. Preheat oven up to 170 C and line yo muffin pan
2. Cream the butter, sugar and salt until light and fluffy with a mixer
3. Add the eggs, one at a time, incorporating them into the butter mixture thoroughly
4. Add that lemon zest and that mayo into the mixture – mix it up
5. Add the sifted (flour + baking soda + baking powder)into the mixture until just combined
6. Add the lemon juice and mix it up some more
7. Add em up to those muffin liners and bake 15 mins

Side note:
– to easily get the juice from the lemons, halve them and pop them in the microwave for 30 s
– but zest them before you do this

Seriously, the best lemon cake recipe I’ve ever had!

Speaking of lemons,
I’ve a HUGE ass lemon coming up ahead, time to grind (wish me luck)
(like lots of it)


s’pose to write this in my cookbook
(hasn’t happened yet obvs)
so am just gonna waste some more netspace

best brownie mug cake recipe ever

– 2 tbsp butter (about 28 g)
– 2 tbsp of water (milk is yummier)
– dash of vanilla extract
– pinch of salt
– 2 tbsp of granulated sugar (I used gula melaka)
– 2 tbsp of cocoa powder
– 2 tbsp of flour

optional: add 1 tbsp of coconut shavings to make a “bounty” brownie 

zap it in the microwave for like 60 – 90 seconds and 
wham bam thank you mam
yum in a bowl (under 5 mins)


“hey where are you?”
“what have you been up to?”
“what exactly are you doing?”
“bila nak balik?”

frequently asked questions I get from friends/family back home
to be honest, I can only answer 3 out of 4 
still not seeing light at the end of this tunnel yet
it feels weird,
constantly being in a whole another time zone as the others
like you’re lagging behind with the timeline of life, and at times
I feel like I need to catchup and I am just caught in limbo in this phase/time zone
and I am not just talking about relationships but other adulty things like buying your first car, investing in your first home, babies etc.
it is a case of FOMO for sure
but am I really  missing out
I have told myself (and others) one time too many, 
that “the right things will happen at the right time” 
which I do believe in (just sometimes I forget that heh)
I had a bad case of FOMO, but recently I have somewhat grown accustomed to simply being happy and blessed that I have reached where I am despite all the things that have happened
and that things will eventually fall into place

I wouldn’t want to lose myself in the midst of finding other things (if that makes sense)
and I guess having the time to also find myself in the process
you would think one would know themselves best seeing that they’ve only been that one person pretty much all their lives
only caveat that sometimes I feel we lose ourselves a little bit especially when we want to fit in (doing it unconsciously of course)
so try multiplying that by the number of years/people/places we’ve seen/been
that’s a lot to lose
I guess for some people, it is immensely necessary to have that time to develop their sense of individuality and to have that strength (power word lol) to be themselves when everybody around them is trying to fit into a mould
to be a cookie cutter person so to speak
so yes, no more a FOMO.


here’s wishing for the best for the second half of the year.